I wish

I feel very sad when men of my own skin do not talk to me or avoid me like plague.

Apps are to find people who are around you...but thats not happening. people who find u in immediate vicinity avoid you like plague.....is it internal homophobia?

I met this guy who also studies in my institute, but another faculty. we had a chat on the mobile gay app. then he once told me that he has seen me....

a semester later i contacted him....and asked him lets meet ...we can just talk or have coffee as it is really boring on the campus as there are no gay men around...he was silent.

the other day he passed by, i guess he said a hi but just went off fast  ...i dont know if he heard my hi...but later he replied on the app that he said Hi....and that there wasnt much to say beyond that...fine i thot he was busy

again today he was passing by, i said a Hi....

his Hi ws very reluctant. I felt very bad, very bad....

It is humiliating.....